I hadn't seen your previous entry until now, and I'm so glad you're feeling better. I don't know you or Nick personally, of course, but you guys just seem like you're all kinds of awesome. You can't be that awesome and NOT have things work out OK. Fact.
BTW, my husband and I still randomly burst out in laughter about that thing you once wrote about Doc Boy Arbuckle. It's genius. GENIUS.
You two are the cutest. I'm glad you're feeling better, but mostly I'm interested in the private island and attractive blind masseuse. If we're playing "tell me a story" that's the story I want to hear.
In early '97, a few months into our engagement, my guy and I found out on the very same day, and nearly at the same moment, that neither one of us got the jobs we had interviewed at length for - jobs we were really counting on.
We were angry, sad and more than a little worried.
Long story short: that set-back resulted in us expanding our horizons, packing up and moving on to other things but eventually moving back to where we wanted to be but in an infinitely better position.
Sometimes a step-back allows for a greater leap forward.
It'll all be o.k.
I remember having to choose between contact lens solution and conditioner once, because I couldn't afford them both. I had just moved in with Sean in San Diego and had no job, no friends, and no idea why I'd moved my entire life from London to the States for this one boy. It was a hard time and it doesn't go away magically (I then had to repeat the whole thing six months later when we moved to Charleston) but it DOES get better, I promise.
I'm going to be in London in three weeks: tell me what you miss from America and we'll meet in a pub so I can give it to you, and maybe also simultaneously pour beer down your throat. Homesickness is horrible. So glad you're starting to feel better.
Jan and Feb in the UK can really suck. I remember going bad crazy in the greyness, and good crazy when the sun came out. Like Canadians when the mercury creeps above freezing.
Glad you're feeling a little better. It must be tough with the uncertainties and so on. It'll come together, as you well know.
While you're over there, could you let me know if I should sell my Tooting flat? I can't decide. If I do, I'll have to pop back in June to sort it out.
When I saw the pictures of you with Esme at the zoo, I immediately thought to myself, "That outing probably blew out a lot of cobwebs". Sounds like I thought correctly.
Hang in there, you two. The world is your oyster, you just gotta find your shucker.
Sorry, since it is apparently International Grammar Day, I have to fix my last sentence, because it is making me nuts. So, with that, the world is your oyster, you've just got to find your shucker.
Thank you and good day.
Yesterday, I was consumed by the brilliance of Seuss's "Oh, the Places You'll Go". I don't know what you're going through but it's a transition of some sort, no? They often suck, and then they don't when we come out the other side. You will. I will. Hang in there.
Yay, so glad you're both feeling better! And lack of sunshine is so much more powerful than we realize--last month we had twelve straight days here in Chicago where the sun didn't come out once, and suddenly my entire world fell apart (in my mind). Then the sun came out again and I was all, oh, right. I'm fine.
Yeah, I was telling my friend Pierce the other day, I'm starting to understand why the Egyptians built an entire way of life around the sun.
I am so glad to hear that you're feeling better. I'm not sure if I commented on the other post (because sometimes I find it hard to comment on the personal stuff of Internet People Who I Do Not Know), but, man, I have been there. How wonderful to have Esme to borrow for zoo purposes and to have a little sunshine now and then.
The sun came out today in Columbus, and I was so excited that I wanted to lead a parade down my street. It's the little things, I guess. I'm glad to hear that the sunny weather in London had a similar effect.
I also thought you might like this song "Home" by Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros.(You might have already heard it.) It doesn't necessarily cure homesickness, but the lyrics are nice and it's a pretty good song to whistle along to.
Cheers to the upcoming spring.
a blind masseuse on a tropical island really is the ultimate fantasy indulgence, isn't it?
i'm glad to hear you are feeling better, and i hope things continue to get sunnier and sunnier for you! oh dear - wait - that sounds like it could end up getting sort of dangerous/apocalyptic. what i mean is, i hope your days continue to get better and better! wishing you nothing but the best <3
Sarah,
Thank YOU for being gutsy and putting your life on the Internet. I e-mailed you a few times about my friend who's studying abroad in London and having a hard time? She could have written the first paragraph. Things always turn up. It's just hard to remember when you're down.
Here in Kansas we're rooting for you. I have been there with the bleak times, and I have to say my marriage is that much stronger for it. Trust each other, love each other and keep forging ahead. We love you, we do!
I read your previous post, and thought "oh, that's a bummer." and then I failed to comment, because I was so apathetic. Everyone I know is waiting for this winter to end. Glad that yours seems to be waning a bit. The sun is out in Omaha today, and the world seems to be a little bit easier. I hope your sun continues and that your troubles are not so heavy.
I'm so glad you're feeling better. You two are going to have the best life.
Depression sucks. As hard as it may be to imagine it will get better, it will. It has to and you'll get through it. This thought at least helps me when I'm in the doldrums.
I know you don't need to hear this but you are so damn talented and everyone loves you (they do!). Hang in there Sarah B.!
YAY for feeling better. It's always good to have the love of friends in times like these-- and even strangers through the miracle of Al Gore's internet. ;) February in Chicago is brutal and can bring on the sads like there never was any sunshine at all! But then, the sun will re-appear; making it 30 degrees (but sunny!) and everyone thinks it's warm enough to wear shorts. Ridiculous, really. But the mood? Lifted. I hope yours remains lifted as well. Things will get better on the financial tip...hang in there!
Lady, I wish to hug you in that non-sexual but completely supportive ladyway for a very long time.
Also: When I play "Tell Me A Story" I talk about meeting you for a picnic in the park (I bring the wine).
I'm glad you are feeling better and the sun is shining out there!
Another total Internet stranger here saying we're all rooting for you two! Because, you're awesome.
Tumblr confuses me and I don't know how to comment on it or if you can but I have to ask a burning question about the end result of the wedding dress search: does this mean you are going to wear a veil after all???
I hope things stay upbeat. We're all rooting for you.
AiryFairie, I think you're talking about the sheer-top wedding outfit on Tumblr? I feel like the veil would just take away from the nipples, don't you?
Things are going to be just fine. Just know and trust in that. I've been saying that to myself a lot here lately, too!
My fiance just quit his soul sucking miserable job with my full support because I just couldn't stand to see him so depressed anymore. Yeah, money is tight but you know what, my man is back. He's more confidant and hopeful now being unemployed than he was working for the aforementioned soulless big name American corporation that worked him like an Egyptian slave just because everyone is scared to make a move because of the recession. Piss all over that, I say.
You both are too charming and witty for this temporary blip to be lasting so do try to maintain perspective and muck on through. Things CAN and WILL get better. The low times make us appreciate the good times so much more. Not to mention now you both know how the other reacts in times of adversity...and it sounds like you two are going to come out on the other side of this stronger and better for having done it together.
I admire you both.
Oh drat. I thought that said "blonde" masseuse.
Hey Sarah,
Just read both of your blog entries, glad to hear you are doing better! Whenever you get down, just watch this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OVF4r3fLBrU
Those hats! Those pants! That song! It's hard to be down after that.
You seem to pop up on so many blogs I read (I also am friends with Patti, who keeps us updated on all the cool stuff you do). Keep on being awesome.
Hi internet, Nick here. I just wanted to chime in and say that I couldn't agree more with Sarah's sentiments. Our difficulties have been made considerably more bearable by the kind words and support offered by all of you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Internet, you rule.